it's 2.30am
POSTED ON: Wednesday, 3 September 2014 @ 11:43 | 0 comments
well..
it's 2.30am, and I've been staring at this screen since an hour ago, trying to think of something to blog about
I contemplated complaining about irresponsible people and how much they irk me
but well.. just thinking about it makes my blood boil and I have no mood
not right now anyway
it's 2.30am, and I'm quiet in the living room, listening to the sound made by my fan and the glorious sound of cars zooming by now and again
sometimes it is nice just to sit down, breathe, and try to keep myself from thinking too much
cause it is always so easy for my mind to over-think and wander off to the worst-case scenario
it's 2.30am, and I'm thinking of how wonderful it is to be alive, counting my lucky stars to be breathing and kicking
to be able to be healthy (well, sorta)
to be able to do what I like
to have people who care about me, around me
it's 2.30am, and I'm tired from going out early and coming home late, leaving me not enough time to myself
it is time for me to recharge myself so that I can get ready for more human interactions for the weeks to come
with a book and a cup of milo sitting beside me
I guess it's time for me to stop typing
another day is going by
-[chi ling]-
my goals for this holiday
POSTED ON: @ 00:20 | 0 comments
a short update on what I did since mondayOn monday, I went to get my vaccination, then went for pre-trip service
Today, I went to the Myanmar Embassy to do my visa, then went back to school for the student's briefing, before going back to the embassy to collect back my visa
I'm feeling quite much better already
(I even have the mood to pick up some needles and threads to start sewing my own passport cover!)
//side note: I'm finally done with the passport cover, and omg I'm so happy with the end product!
so throughout this holiday, I'll be damn busy (as I have mentioned before)
but at the same time, I don't want to lose myself amongst the busy-ness
I still want to record music
I still want to read many books
I still want to create art
I still want to explore Singapore and take pictures of pretty scenery (notice how 'explore Myanmar' is not included here.. cause I don't think we'll be given the time to explore Myanmar :( )
those are what I want to do
so here's a target list!
before the semester starts on 20 October,
I must finish these:
1. Finish reading 7 more books
within the first week of holidays, I have finished reading 2 books (If I Stay and Anna and the French Kiss)
so now, I have 7 more books to finish reading!
2. I want to record 2 more (full!) songs
So far, I've only recorded one song - Can't Help Falling In Love
(hint: it is in my youtube channel)
it has been really really fun, so I want to do it again
3. I want to do 2 more art pieces
so far during this holiday, I have only started doing my passport cover
quite mundane if you were to ask me
so I want to complete 2 more art pieces!
(and maybe pick up from my Wreck This Journal again!)
4. Explore Singapore please
being in poly has made me realised how "sheltered"(?) I am from Singapore and exploring?
like I've always been going to school, going home, going to bugis street/town area, and that is all that I know about Singapore! hashtag failed singaporean
I've never known that Singapore could have pretty sceneries
so well, I hope I'll have the time to explore around!
let's hope I'll be able to complete my goals despite the busy schedule!
-[chi ling]-
constantly being sick is like constantly being told "eff you" by my body
POSTED ON: Monday, 1 September 2014 @ 06:54 | 0 comments
I really hate to be sick, believe it or notto always be the one person who is constantly sick
it always feels like heavens is trying to shout "screw you" to me through my body
what the shit
it doesn't feel nice to always be so uncomfortable okay
feeling the constant headache, muscle ache and nauseous feeling
it is like a constant "eff you" that my body always tells me
I feel like shit
try to be in my shoes, will you
I always feel so uncomfortable in my own body
and my head always feels like it is growing an extra brain inside (touchwood!)
and my body is always at war, fighting viruses and bacteria
and my stomach is always trying to churn everything out of my system
and it doesn't help that i'm already feeling so tired from today
and my hand hurts from the injection
and I'm running a fever
and muscle aches all over
and I'm feeling emotional
and I have to sit through your shoutings
first day to september and it hasn't been a good start. at all.
what the shit
I am tired, and it is only 9.47pm, and I swear I'm not gonna care about the world anymore
at least not anymore for tonight, cause I have had enough shit for today
shut up, world
11 months, and I'm still into you
-[chi ling]-
